Noviembre IV - The Final and Jungle Nirvana

November is finally coming to an end. and finally when you catch the first glimpse of this scheduled post November would have come to the final. And so this shall be the last of the Noviembre series...a part of my life, a major one, half scraped onto this page. and at the same time, on the date this post is up, i'll still be in a jungle.yeah...i'm gonna end this month and start the next in the dense jungle near Pantai Kerachut.

The trip will be from saturday till monday.3 days 2 nights and three fellows only, not a scout troop or what.it's time for prophecies and revelations there.Its actually some kind of bio camp to get 25 specimens of insects and 25 of plants.gonna get real big stingy ones....not the likes of the household ka-chuak.but for me, it shall be more than that.

gotta put the flowers on the grave,
and start walking away,
pulling out the cross from the heart,
and sling up the guitar on the way.


The heart doesnt last forever.nothing last forever.even the cold november rain..

there's just this some kind of feeling in me that kept me from walking away.everytime i tried to walk i shall be pulled back to it. i just dunno bout it....maybe i'm pulled, maybe i just walked to it, maybe i just resist to walk away, maybe i cant.Maybe
And everytime, I roar to myself, 'I won't let this build up inside of me'.I roar it each time i'm at the breaking point and each time I escape by merely covering up with stuffs.By doing things.taking the axe and let it roll.get my speakers on high.binging myself out. and go hang in places that i can find serenity.Its much like heroin in my life, gotta suck on it to escape from truth.maybe i should kept being high on it.there's just too much shit in this world and i'm gonna step on it, squashing it one by one.pardon me

This jungle trip shall get my conscience clear.even though i doubted it.heh.so i'll just let the jungle speak for itself.And yes, three weeks ago.a revelation came, April has been returned.After spending almost 10 months on her, my heart has grow on to it.for your info, April is an acoustic classical guitar.the first guitar that i've actually 'owned'.i learned from it and through it, it made me realise that everything is possible.It's the guitar that i started out with, where i learn my first scale, my first song, my first lick, my first bend...and it has that distinct low mellow tone that is different from other acoustics.somehow it is the sound that will reach into the cavities of the heart.the one that you will actually feel nice and peaceful with.but now it's gone.thank you April for the memories that we have shared.I've no pictures or recordings to share, just memories.

The guitar rack shall be left incomplete.



So goodbye November...we shall come together again in a year to come

Jeesus shall rise again

I know its hard to keep an open heart,
when even friends seem out to harm you,
but if you can heal a broken heart,
wouldn't time be out to charm you.

Noviembre III - Thirty Minutes

What can 30 minutes do for you? today everything is possible.

there's a certain half an hour today that shined on my life, made the skies seems brighter and the sea in front looked calm and the trees along that highway beam with green.the Highway that i've frequently rolled on once...

I met a person in the lapse of thirty minutes. but it's not bout the time...I'm there just to see whether she's fine, she's alright.Yeah, person, you do look so fine.But down deep i know you ain't inside...there's just so much on your back.that saddens me.But worse of all is that i can't possibly remove it.the most I can and allowed to do is to stand by your side.

However there's still sunshine on you.i peeped and i saw it.
I'm running the same marathon as you did.







I don't know about heaven,
but i do believe in an angel.

Noviembre II - Bridgeway To Heaven

The Penang Bridge International Marathon finally happened for me.never ever thought that I'll be joining a marathon in my life...well, anything can happen.Went to Queensbay the night before a caught a midnight showing of Quarantine with Edward, ChiaHaw ppk.man this movie is a camera point of view shoot which is like Cloverfield and Blair Witch Project...good story for me.finished around 1.40 and then hang out at coffee bean till 3am like that.Actually there's already a lot of ppl there.lots of them are from mainland because the bridge is gonna close from 2 onwards.coffee bean is earning big bucks that night...prolly the only time of the year.heh.People are sleeping on the roadsides and outside queens seriously...when i got down some we're sleeping inn coffee bean as in curl up on the sofas and snuggling on their bags and etc.this prolly one of the biggest sports event in penang, you know.


I changed and got ready around 3.15 like that.the actual starting time is 4.30am.changed to the t-shirt with running numbers on it, shorts and extra stuff for me, two silver and two black earrings.supposed to bring me goodluck i guess.then we registered and waited in the hold up place.then there was some kind of aerobic warm up for all the participants.shit, it looks more like clubbing to me...with the early morning and music and everybody is semi-dancing.wth.

Everybody is eager to start it off.I bet what's on their mind for the run.Some run for the prize money.some run for the certs and medal.some run for own satisfaction.some run for pride.some run to prove something.how about running for love?i guess thats a more meaningful one and what i'm doing,maybe.learnt that from Troy.so the race started off...and everybody is running.i began with edward, chia haw, matthew ng and chan william.then after a while the link is broken off.i tried to kept the pace of my heart at a low, reduce the rate of air flow.minimize all the actions on the upper body to conserve energy.first i'm actually trying to do this.i kept my constant pace till the middle of the bridge...and at the first touch of the first triangle structure thingy i slowed down to walk and got the 100plus there.wooh i ran for about an hour nonstop and i'm only at the middle way there.geez.i only have 3 and a half the complete the whole thing! its a real hard and aching time on the bridge i tell you...when the energy within me seems low, I'll picture a certain person i'm running for at the end of the bridge..


so i ran cum jog cum walk all the way till the toll and made a big U-turn and collected the other wristband to mark that you have passed the checkpoint.It felt like a big game of fetch you know.then i started on the way back....while beginning my way back some dudes were talking the time factor.It was already around 6 thirty then.they were saying that we've used 2 hours to cross the bridge and now we've only got 1 and a half to finish the thing....and his friend said that there's not enough time already.shit.after passing a watering station at the beginning of the bridge....i started out pushing myself.Push like i've never done before.seriously.

when i finished the bridge i've only half an hour to return to queensbay.really shithole.it was near Ivory Tower and i pushed all the way to the finishing line with the person in mind...and oh yeah.I finished in time!!i clocked 3 hours and 20 minutes!!whoa felt so nauseous when i reached, vomitted air.so there i've got the medal and the cert.huh...most importantly the inspiration i'm running for.I didnt fail it.I'll run a marathon and I did.

Now I'm sitting right here typing this post...with a total annihilation of my body.with legs and joints like barbecued marshmallows.soft yet stiff and hard.its all worth it.there...... i've run it.



A run for love.

Noviembre - Month Of Memories

My favourite month of the year is finally here, just fits the timing really well. I'm gonna really have great things lining up this month. School's gonna end next week and so holiday plan's gonna kick in, to start it off, i'm gonna take part in the Penang Bridge Marathon.And my biggest expectation is, no not the medal, not the certificate and certainly not the prize money.But this.

Yeah, i wanna see this.Its just like the mood of the previous post, Out Of The Sunrise.It would have been heavenly you know.Just lately I've been doing things that let me hear my own self more clearly. I've taken significant interest in instrumental soul and motown music as well.such as Kenny G, Marvin Gaye, Kevin Kern, The Temptations and some of Butckethead's quiet pieces.

And lined up a simple vague schedule for guitar. I dont wanna put up like a rigid one so that i'll have fun with it, so that i can twist, so that i can bend around it. Anyway, decided for a 4 hour a day on the guitar. 2 hours on technique and the other two on pure jamming or ripping up songs. It'll be great, maybe i might go more than four, who knows, when you're high you never wanna get down. The penang bridge marathon offer a first prize of RM3000 for my category, so might be a useful lot if i got that.gonna try for that even got a slim chance.but the main aim is the break of dawn.the run gonna be on the 16th anyway.And that night I'll be heading to G-Spot, G-Hotel for a jazz event.which will showcase some penang peeps.Heres the flyer. gonna go to a bistro for the first time, if boozing, i'll try either tiger or heineken.heh.

I just love it that it rains a lot and unpredictably too in November.