The Dawn Will Have It's Burn

I wanna try something other than the usual Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas. So i got another from Tony Bennett.Let the music load.


Not the last, Merry Christmas. and woah...December has been busy and and the last post was around three weeks back on kerachut. After the sweet November, December just exploded onto life.and shit this suppose to be a 5am Christmas Eve or it's kiss of dawn post but i left the computer on hanging waiting for me, while i fly in my dream. I'm slowly turning nocturnal and this will really take its toll on me when school reopens.games are big time losers, taking shit out of my time, the fun part is playing with friends only.DotA...bluek.I'll rather play guitar really.

After this period of absence, i wanna write all out about my December activities but shit...i read Jared's post first, and i felt it will be lame to write another covering the same events. So go see Jared's. Basically I'm in all the activities except the pool days.I'm gonna talk bout the few recent ones and yeah i would love to talk about roti racist/mini at Argyll Road but....i'm feeling salty T_T So okay, come back. The latest gig with Jared and Wheen is Pessoc's Concert on the 23rd of December. Sponsored and exclusively for Texchem ppl...thanks to Jared's mum we got the invitation cards. they were playing Beethoven's famous No.9, the one with Ode To Joy. I'll say it's good, but I'm a noob in classical music...this is the first time I heard No.9 live with full fledged choir and voices. And i just like the way Malmsteen-Shimano conduct...yeah!he pumps up the crowd with his movements. And I look into the crowd...most people doesnt know the first two movements and they look bored, the dude beside me was sleeping.sigh. quite a few ppl i know were up there. A few band seniors were playing for the orchestra.Adelyn the violinist.some school fellows in the chorus...wth.Andrew Filmer headbanging violin.some USM ppl too. Saw a group of USM Jazz Band ppl after the show....prolly they had some friends onstage.Funny how i realise I'll be upstage with them on the 30th.hah.

As mention this was supposed to be the Eve post, so i'm gonna rip. the Christmas Eve night was spent in front of my computer desk.I'll start from 8 pm.i had a game of DotA with Jonathan...killed him in his fountain...ahh.Imba feeling.then he gotta go church for the Christmas mass. so i went get some winks on my bed, woke up at 9.30pm.when to my computer, which is by the window.the church in front of my house is beaming and the bells are tolling, I assume Jonathan to be in there. Heaven's Bell. was planning to go out and have supper but the roads are tight shit jammed. So i decided to have myself a merry little christmas at home.
I got myself Campbell soup, ribena and some Pringles. bring all of them to my desktop. and the atmostphere just highten up. everybody is busy in Garena.the church is singing mellowly. and my comp played Buckethead's Electric Tears album. Padmasana was the highlight.ooh...

Self made Ribena, Campbell Soup and Pringles

And once i was taught by someone to eat Campbell soup straight from the can. and yeah. I tried a few. and i tell ya what...it will taste better and more warmy if you heat up the can first.= ] so put it in an oven first or what.

And so I had myself a merry little Christmas.

And yeah..the next on my to do list will be

- 'Jazz Band Plays Medley' concert on the 30th. gonna have fun with the university people
- G3 footage at wheen's. plus Siren 'to be continued...'
- maybe kerachut again
- Bio folio crap
- maybe I'll try pool day at Jared's

A tribute to Hide, the passed guitarist of X-Japan. connected for Jared's post.the guitar pick given to me by Wheen 6 months ago.

love me.suck me.lick me.spank me

Hideto Matsumoto

for once in my life I'll get dreadlocks. watch out.


Merry Christmas buddies = ]

Marrow Of The Forest and The Kerachut Riders

The jungle trip proved to hold the truth.An initial fun or for me a trip for the heart, turn out to be mixed with some survival elements.should it be or shouldn't it be this way, i enjoyed the rush and adrenaline in it.I'll speak less and let the pics speak more.
The first day went through some twist of fate.the personnel alongside me are Edward Lee and Hong Chia Haw.kinda wierd because being the unsociable shadow of me, I'm camping with two dudes that i talk less than 5 minutes for over 5 years of secondary school.You guys, cheers and be cool,yeah.
the initial starting rendezvous time is at 12 pm.but due to some delay to buy stuffs and the long journey to Teluk Bahang, we ended up starting the hike at 5 pm.yeah a hill hike to Kerachut at 5 pm with loads suiting 6 persons carried by 3.i know its gonna be crappy to start hiking, but never the lest we continued.hah.The darkness shift over the light at around 7.30 and we were only halfway at the second shelter.So three of us decided and insane decision : overnight in the middle of the jungle.this is seriously the contigency plan...we took some effort to start a fire in the clearing.it's actually illegal to start a fire because its a taman negara but we did anyway or else we're gonna in pitch black and we've gotta barbecue something to eat.seriously almost backwoodsman style..and thus we we overnighted in the middle of the jungle.and worse of all, the pitch black darkness started to have its toll on my mind.i see things, flickers of light in the forest.and i see glowing trees and plants, what the hell,some mind games.immediately thought that someone is flashing light.really crappy darkness.Revelation = I'm afraid of the darkness, ghost, vampire and such.

a night in the jungle, thats the part i like the most about this trip.it felt really original anyway.and so we continue our hike the morning after.the heavy burden of my loads really didn't help either.I carried two full bags, a guitar and an ice box...the shoulders really felt like its at the edge of collapsing.fuh.we reached Kerachut after a 15 hour journey including the jungle night...fux yeah.And so we set up our camp site in an isolated part of the place but later on we were ask to move over to the designated camp site.ish have to pindah summore after our tiring trip through the jungle.and the trip moved on...we even decided to extend another day making it a 4 days and 3 nights camp.


the fateful axe by the entrance

all the back and shoulder breakers that dragged us into the dark

firing up a slow burn

entertainment in the dark jungle

the darkness is really intriguing

candle, chor tai ti and mamee

the light, mosquito coil and shoes( if can see)

finally the bridge to salvation after 15 hours

the tent, didnt spend too much time in there though

campbell soup cans torn open by insatiable hunger

to the dock, spend more time with the wild and open

A jellyfish seen in the water


some kind of sea level machine


bridgeway to paradise

shall be done again.another day

And so shall the trip be kept in the memoirs of the man himself.Jungle really shows the truth.More of it to come into the sanctum.

Noviembre IV - The Final and Jungle Nirvana

November is finally coming to an end. and finally when you catch the first glimpse of this scheduled post November would have come to the final. And so this shall be the last of the Noviembre series...a part of my life, a major one, half scraped onto this page. and at the same time, on the date this post is up, i'll still be in a jungle.yeah...i'm gonna end this month and start the next in the dense jungle near Pantai Kerachut.

The trip will be from saturday till monday.3 days 2 nights and three fellows only, not a scout troop or what.it's time for prophecies and revelations there.Its actually some kind of bio camp to get 25 specimens of insects and 25 of plants.gonna get real big stingy ones....not the likes of the household ka-chuak.but for me, it shall be more than that.

gotta put the flowers on the grave,
and start walking away,
pulling out the cross from the heart,
and sling up the guitar on the way.


The heart doesnt last forever.nothing last forever.even the cold november rain..

there's just this some kind of feeling in me that kept me from walking away.everytime i tried to walk i shall be pulled back to it. i just dunno bout it....maybe i'm pulled, maybe i just walked to it, maybe i just resist to walk away, maybe i cant.Maybe
And everytime, I roar to myself, 'I won't let this build up inside of me'.I roar it each time i'm at the breaking point and each time I escape by merely covering up with stuffs.By doing things.taking the axe and let it roll.get my speakers on high.binging myself out. and go hang in places that i can find serenity.Its much like heroin in my life, gotta suck on it to escape from truth.maybe i should kept being high on it.there's just too much shit in this world and i'm gonna step on it, squashing it one by one.pardon me

This jungle trip shall get my conscience clear.even though i doubted it.heh.so i'll just let the jungle speak for itself.And yes, three weeks ago.a revelation came, April has been returned.After spending almost 10 months on her, my heart has grow on to it.for your info, April is an acoustic classical guitar.the first guitar that i've actually 'owned'.i learned from it and through it, it made me realise that everything is possible.It's the guitar that i started out with, where i learn my first scale, my first song, my first lick, my first bend...and it has that distinct low mellow tone that is different from other acoustics.somehow it is the sound that will reach into the cavities of the heart.the one that you will actually feel nice and peaceful with.but now it's gone.thank you April for the memories that we have shared.I've no pictures or recordings to share, just memories.

The guitar rack shall be left incomplete.



So goodbye November...we shall come together again in a year to come

Jeesus shall rise again

I know its hard to keep an open heart,
when even friends seem out to harm you,
but if you can heal a broken heart,
wouldn't time be out to charm you.

Noviembre III - Thirty Minutes

What can 30 minutes do for you? today everything is possible.

there's a certain half an hour today that shined on my life, made the skies seems brighter and the sea in front looked calm and the trees along that highway beam with green.the Highway that i've frequently rolled on once...

I met a person in the lapse of thirty minutes. but it's not bout the time...I'm there just to see whether she's fine, she's alright.Yeah, person, you do look so fine.But down deep i know you ain't inside...there's just so much on your back.that saddens me.But worse of all is that i can't possibly remove it.the most I can and allowed to do is to stand by your side.

However there's still sunshine on you.i peeped and i saw it.
I'm running the same marathon as you did.







I don't know about heaven,
but i do believe in an angel.

Noviembre II - Bridgeway To Heaven

The Penang Bridge International Marathon finally happened for me.never ever thought that I'll be joining a marathon in my life...well, anything can happen.Went to Queensbay the night before a caught a midnight showing of Quarantine with Edward, ChiaHaw ppk.man this movie is a camera point of view shoot which is like Cloverfield and Blair Witch Project...good story for me.finished around 1.40 and then hang out at coffee bean till 3am like that.Actually there's already a lot of ppl there.lots of them are from mainland because the bridge is gonna close from 2 onwards.coffee bean is earning big bucks that night...prolly the only time of the year.heh.People are sleeping on the roadsides and outside queens seriously...when i got down some we're sleeping inn coffee bean as in curl up on the sofas and snuggling on their bags and etc.this prolly one of the biggest sports event in penang, you know.


I changed and got ready around 3.15 like that.the actual starting time is 4.30am.changed to the t-shirt with running numbers on it, shorts and extra stuff for me, two silver and two black earrings.supposed to bring me goodluck i guess.then we registered and waited in the hold up place.then there was some kind of aerobic warm up for all the participants.shit, it looks more like clubbing to me...with the early morning and music and everybody is semi-dancing.wth.

Everybody is eager to start it off.I bet what's on their mind for the run.Some run for the prize money.some run for the certs and medal.some run for own satisfaction.some run for pride.some run to prove something.how about running for love?i guess thats a more meaningful one and what i'm doing,maybe.learnt that from Troy.so the race started off...and everybody is running.i began with edward, chia haw, matthew ng and chan william.then after a while the link is broken off.i tried to kept the pace of my heart at a low, reduce the rate of air flow.minimize all the actions on the upper body to conserve energy.first i'm actually trying to do this.i kept my constant pace till the middle of the bridge...and at the first touch of the first triangle structure thingy i slowed down to walk and got the 100plus there.wooh i ran for about an hour nonstop and i'm only at the middle way there.geez.i only have 3 and a half the complete the whole thing! its a real hard and aching time on the bridge i tell you...when the energy within me seems low, I'll picture a certain person i'm running for at the end of the bridge..


so i ran cum jog cum walk all the way till the toll and made a big U-turn and collected the other wristband to mark that you have passed the checkpoint.It felt like a big game of fetch you know.then i started on the way back....while beginning my way back some dudes were talking the time factor.It was already around 6 thirty then.they were saying that we've used 2 hours to cross the bridge and now we've only got 1 and a half to finish the thing....and his friend said that there's not enough time already.shit.after passing a watering station at the beginning of the bridge....i started out pushing myself.Push like i've never done before.seriously.

when i finished the bridge i've only half an hour to return to queensbay.really shithole.it was near Ivory Tower and i pushed all the way to the finishing line with the person in mind...and oh yeah.I finished in time!!i clocked 3 hours and 20 minutes!!whoa felt so nauseous when i reached, vomitted air.so there i've got the medal and the cert.huh...most importantly the inspiration i'm running for.I didnt fail it.I'll run a marathon and I did.

Now I'm sitting right here typing this post...with a total annihilation of my body.with legs and joints like barbecued marshmallows.soft yet stiff and hard.its all worth it.there...... i've run it.



A run for love.

Noviembre - Month Of Memories

My favourite month of the year is finally here, just fits the timing really well. I'm gonna really have great things lining up this month. School's gonna end next week and so holiday plan's gonna kick in, to start it off, i'm gonna take part in the Penang Bridge Marathon.And my biggest expectation is, no not the medal, not the certificate and certainly not the prize money.But this.

Yeah, i wanna see this.Its just like the mood of the previous post, Out Of The Sunrise.It would have been heavenly you know.Just lately I've been doing things that let me hear my own self more clearly. I've taken significant interest in instrumental soul and motown music as well.such as Kenny G, Marvin Gaye, Kevin Kern, The Temptations and some of Butckethead's quiet pieces.

And lined up a simple vague schedule for guitar. I dont wanna put up like a rigid one so that i'll have fun with it, so that i can twist, so that i can bend around it. Anyway, decided for a 4 hour a day on the guitar. 2 hours on technique and the other two on pure jamming or ripping up songs. It'll be great, maybe i might go more than four, who knows, when you're high you never wanna get down. The penang bridge marathon offer a first prize of RM3000 for my category, so might be a useful lot if i got that.gonna try for that even got a slim chance.but the main aim is the break of dawn.the run gonna be on the 16th anyway.And that night I'll be heading to G-Spot, G-Hotel for a jazz event.which will showcase some penang peeps.Heres the flyer. gonna go to a bistro for the first time, if boozing, i'll try either tiger or heineken.heh.

I just love it that it rains a lot and unpredictably too in November.

Fly On Sweet Angel - I'll Be Back

The past weekend i've had, prolly could have been a fun one for me in quite sometime.Its exam fever this time around and everybody's busy eating and shitting books and notes.As for me, I've been taking it lightly and just started today...i dont wanna get shit grades afterall.After all the stuffs over the weekend.

On Saturday, it was Co-curiculum Day in school. So I went to help out the band play a few songs...like refreshment for the audieces la, really simple stuffs. After that went to Mcd with Chia Haw, Ed and Matt, had lunch.like normal Mcd days...ahh. and while lunching, Yik Sean invited me to go Gurney for some hanging out.So i decided to play along...since its been ages since i stepped into gurney.

Man, its hell of a good Gurney day actually.i went to Towers and guess what, they were blasting AC/DC when i got in there. And even shittier, Natalie the shopkeeper who branded Guns N' Roses punk rock was like tapping feet and lightly banging head to AC/DC's For Those About To Rock(We Salute You). Ahh....she has come a long way indeed.And there's a plasma widescreen showing an AC/DC concert on blu ray.Angus Young took of his pants when i was watching. = ]
Man...I seriously love Tower records that day, dont wanna get out la. it felt just so great with the hi-fi blasting!Thank you, Natalie.

After that went to the music shop and guess what i saw in the vault of guitars...




Its Joe Satriani's Ibanez JS20S Silver Surfer Limited Edition! man...this babe cost around 4 or 5K.Wooh....i've never seen a JS in local stores.gonna try it one day...too bad its in the vault.i really hope the people there are nice enough to let me try. And damnit they placed it right beside a JEM Jr...uhh..increases rocker libido..

Caught a chinese movie too, Painted Skin. nice storylines...almost made me cry.lots of romance ...always trust your partner.T.T

And and and and the thrill of the day. Got a new pair of piercings. one side each on the ears...yeah, got to experience the thrill of it again.It hurts more this time actually. so i'm already on the next level....planned for 3 on each side actually.heh
That was Saturday.

Sunday happened so quickly.I ended up procrastinating the whole day instead of studying. music and guitar being the attention seekers again.but i love it...how can you help it when you open up a book, and then the guitar pickups are like staring you on the face.ahh... so thats about it. gonna return after the finals.I'll be back again, blacker on me.Time to whip some education ass...keep on rockin'.


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