The Dawn Will Have It's Burn

I wanna try something other than the usual Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas. So i got another from Tony Bennett.Let the music load.


Not the last, Merry Christmas. and woah...December has been busy and and the last post was around three weeks back on kerachut. After the sweet November, December just exploded onto life.and shit this suppose to be a 5am Christmas Eve or it's kiss of dawn post but i left the computer on hanging waiting for me, while i fly in my dream. I'm slowly turning nocturnal and this will really take its toll on me when school reopens.games are big time losers, taking shit out of my time, the fun part is playing with friends only.DotA...bluek.I'll rather play guitar really.

After this period of absence, i wanna write all out about my December activities but shit...i read Jared's post first, and i felt it will be lame to write another covering the same events. So go see Jared's. Basically I'm in all the activities except the pool days.I'm gonna talk bout the few recent ones and yeah i would love to talk about roti racist/mini at Argyll Road but....i'm feeling salty T_T So okay, come back. The latest gig with Jared and Wheen is Pessoc's Concert on the 23rd of December. Sponsored and exclusively for Texchem ppl...thanks to Jared's mum we got the invitation cards. they were playing Beethoven's famous No.9, the one with Ode To Joy. I'll say it's good, but I'm a noob in classical music...this is the first time I heard No.9 live with full fledged choir and voices. And i just like the way Malmsteen-Shimano conduct...yeah!he pumps up the crowd with his movements. And I look into the crowd...most people doesnt know the first two movements and they look bored, the dude beside me was sleeping.sigh. quite a few ppl i know were up there. A few band seniors were playing for the orchestra.Adelyn the violinist.some school fellows in the chorus...wth.Andrew Filmer headbanging violin.some USM ppl too. Saw a group of USM Jazz Band ppl after the show....prolly they had some friends onstage.Funny how i realise I'll be upstage with them on the 30th.hah.

As mention this was supposed to be the Eve post, so i'm gonna rip. the Christmas Eve night was spent in front of my computer desk.I'll start from 8 pm.i had a game of DotA with Jonathan...killed him in his fountain...ahh.Imba feeling.then he gotta go church for the Christmas mass. so i went get some winks on my bed, woke up at 9.30pm.when to my computer, which is by the window.the church in front of my house is beaming and the bells are tolling, I assume Jonathan to be in there. Heaven's Bell. was planning to go out and have supper but the roads are tight shit jammed. So i decided to have myself a merry little christmas at home.
I got myself Campbell soup, ribena and some Pringles. bring all of them to my desktop. and the atmostphere just highten up. everybody is busy in Garena.the church is singing mellowly. and my comp played Buckethead's Electric Tears album. Padmasana was the highlight.ooh...

Self made Ribena, Campbell Soup and Pringles

And once i was taught by someone to eat Campbell soup straight from the can. and yeah. I tried a few. and i tell ya what...it will taste better and more warmy if you heat up the can first.= ] so put it in an oven first or what.

And so I had myself a merry little Christmas.

And yeah..the next on my to do list will be

- 'Jazz Band Plays Medley' concert on the 30th. gonna have fun with the university people
- G3 footage at wheen's. plus Siren 'to be continued...'
- maybe kerachut again
- Bio folio crap
- maybe I'll try pool day at Jared's

A tribute to Hide, the passed guitarist of X-Japan. connected for Jared's post.the guitar pick given to me by Wheen 6 months ago.

love me.suck me.lick me.spank me

Hideto Matsumoto

for once in my life I'll get dreadlocks. watch out.


Merry Christmas buddies = ]

Marrow Of The Forest and The Kerachut Riders

The jungle trip proved to hold the truth.An initial fun or for me a trip for the heart, turn out to be mixed with some survival elements.should it be or shouldn't it be this way, i enjoyed the rush and adrenaline in it.I'll speak less and let the pics speak more.
The first day went through some twist of fate.the personnel alongside me are Edward Lee and Hong Chia Haw.kinda wierd because being the unsociable shadow of me, I'm camping with two dudes that i talk less than 5 minutes for over 5 years of secondary school.You guys, cheers and be cool,yeah.
the initial starting rendezvous time is at 12 pm.but due to some delay to buy stuffs and the long journey to Teluk Bahang, we ended up starting the hike at 5 pm.yeah a hill hike to Kerachut at 5 pm with loads suiting 6 persons carried by 3.i know its gonna be crappy to start hiking, but never the lest we continued.hah.The darkness shift over the light at around 7.30 and we were only halfway at the second shelter.So three of us decided and insane decision : overnight in the middle of the jungle.this is seriously the contigency plan...we took some effort to start a fire in the clearing.it's actually illegal to start a fire because its a taman negara but we did anyway or else we're gonna in pitch black and we've gotta barbecue something to eat.seriously almost backwoodsman style..and thus we we overnighted in the middle of the jungle.and worse of all, the pitch black darkness started to have its toll on my mind.i see things, flickers of light in the forest.and i see glowing trees and plants, what the hell,some mind games.immediately thought that someone is flashing light.really crappy darkness.Revelation = I'm afraid of the darkness, ghost, vampire and such.

a night in the jungle, thats the part i like the most about this trip.it felt really original anyway.and so we continue our hike the morning after.the heavy burden of my loads really didn't help either.I carried two full bags, a guitar and an ice box...the shoulders really felt like its at the edge of collapsing.fuh.we reached Kerachut after a 15 hour journey including the jungle night...fux yeah.And so we set up our camp site in an isolated part of the place but later on we were ask to move over to the designated camp site.ish have to pindah summore after our tiring trip through the jungle.and the trip moved on...we even decided to extend another day making it a 4 days and 3 nights camp.


the fateful axe by the entrance

all the back and shoulder breakers that dragged us into the dark

firing up a slow burn

entertainment in the dark jungle

the darkness is really intriguing

candle, chor tai ti and mamee

the light, mosquito coil and shoes( if can see)

finally the bridge to salvation after 15 hours

the tent, didnt spend too much time in there though

campbell soup cans torn open by insatiable hunger

to the dock, spend more time with the wild and open

A jellyfish seen in the water


some kind of sea level machine


bridgeway to paradise

shall be done again.another day

And so shall the trip be kept in the memoirs of the man himself.Jungle really shows the truth.More of it to come into the sanctum.

Noviembre IV - The Final and Jungle Nirvana

November is finally coming to an end. and finally when you catch the first glimpse of this scheduled post November would have come to the final. And so this shall be the last of the Noviembre series...a part of my life, a major one, half scraped onto this page. and at the same time, on the date this post is up, i'll still be in a jungle.yeah...i'm gonna end this month and start the next in the dense jungle near Pantai Kerachut.

The trip will be from saturday till monday.3 days 2 nights and three fellows only, not a scout troop or what.it's time for prophecies and revelations there.Its actually some kind of bio camp to get 25 specimens of insects and 25 of plants.gonna get real big stingy ones....not the likes of the household ka-chuak.but for me, it shall be more than that.

gotta put the flowers on the grave,
and start walking away,
pulling out the cross from the heart,
and sling up the guitar on the way.


The heart doesnt last forever.nothing last forever.even the cold november rain..

there's just this some kind of feeling in me that kept me from walking away.everytime i tried to walk i shall be pulled back to it. i just dunno bout it....maybe i'm pulled, maybe i just walked to it, maybe i just resist to walk away, maybe i cant.Maybe
And everytime, I roar to myself, 'I won't let this build up inside of me'.I roar it each time i'm at the breaking point and each time I escape by merely covering up with stuffs.By doing things.taking the axe and let it roll.get my speakers on high.binging myself out. and go hang in places that i can find serenity.Its much like heroin in my life, gotta suck on it to escape from truth.maybe i should kept being high on it.there's just too much shit in this world and i'm gonna step on it, squashing it one by one.pardon me

This jungle trip shall get my conscience clear.even though i doubted it.heh.so i'll just let the jungle speak for itself.And yes, three weeks ago.a revelation came, April has been returned.After spending almost 10 months on her, my heart has grow on to it.for your info, April is an acoustic classical guitar.the first guitar that i've actually 'owned'.i learned from it and through it, it made me realise that everything is possible.It's the guitar that i started out with, where i learn my first scale, my first song, my first lick, my first bend...and it has that distinct low mellow tone that is different from other acoustics.somehow it is the sound that will reach into the cavities of the heart.the one that you will actually feel nice and peaceful with.but now it's gone.thank you April for the memories that we have shared.I've no pictures or recordings to share, just memories.

The guitar rack shall be left incomplete.



So goodbye November...we shall come together again in a year to come

Jeesus shall rise again

I know its hard to keep an open heart,
when even friends seem out to harm you,
but if you can heal a broken heart,
wouldn't time be out to charm you.

Noviembre III - Thirty Minutes

What can 30 minutes do for you? today everything is possible.

there's a certain half an hour today that shined on my life, made the skies seems brighter and the sea in front looked calm and the trees along that highway beam with green.the Highway that i've frequently rolled on once...

I met a person in the lapse of thirty minutes. but it's not bout the time...I'm there just to see whether she's fine, she's alright.Yeah, person, you do look so fine.But down deep i know you ain't inside...there's just so much on your back.that saddens me.But worse of all is that i can't possibly remove it.the most I can and allowed to do is to stand by your side.

However there's still sunshine on you.i peeped and i saw it.
I'm running the same marathon as you did.







I don't know about heaven,
but i do believe in an angel.

Noviembre II - Bridgeway To Heaven

The Penang Bridge International Marathon finally happened for me.never ever thought that I'll be joining a marathon in my life...well, anything can happen.Went to Queensbay the night before a caught a midnight showing of Quarantine with Edward, ChiaHaw ppk.man this movie is a camera point of view shoot which is like Cloverfield and Blair Witch Project...good story for me.finished around 1.40 and then hang out at coffee bean till 3am like that.Actually there's already a lot of ppl there.lots of them are from mainland because the bridge is gonna close from 2 onwards.coffee bean is earning big bucks that night...prolly the only time of the year.heh.People are sleeping on the roadsides and outside queens seriously...when i got down some we're sleeping inn coffee bean as in curl up on the sofas and snuggling on their bags and etc.this prolly one of the biggest sports event in penang, you know.


I changed and got ready around 3.15 like that.the actual starting time is 4.30am.changed to the t-shirt with running numbers on it, shorts and extra stuff for me, two silver and two black earrings.supposed to bring me goodluck i guess.then we registered and waited in the hold up place.then there was some kind of aerobic warm up for all the participants.shit, it looks more like clubbing to me...with the early morning and music and everybody is semi-dancing.wth.

Everybody is eager to start it off.I bet what's on their mind for the run.Some run for the prize money.some run for the certs and medal.some run for own satisfaction.some run for pride.some run to prove something.how about running for love?i guess thats a more meaningful one and what i'm doing,maybe.learnt that from Troy.so the race started off...and everybody is running.i began with edward, chia haw, matthew ng and chan william.then after a while the link is broken off.i tried to kept the pace of my heart at a low, reduce the rate of air flow.minimize all the actions on the upper body to conserve energy.first i'm actually trying to do this.i kept my constant pace till the middle of the bridge...and at the first touch of the first triangle structure thingy i slowed down to walk and got the 100plus there.wooh i ran for about an hour nonstop and i'm only at the middle way there.geez.i only have 3 and a half the complete the whole thing! its a real hard and aching time on the bridge i tell you...when the energy within me seems low, I'll picture a certain person i'm running for at the end of the bridge..


so i ran cum jog cum walk all the way till the toll and made a big U-turn and collected the other wristband to mark that you have passed the checkpoint.It felt like a big game of fetch you know.then i started on the way back....while beginning my way back some dudes were talking the time factor.It was already around 6 thirty then.they were saying that we've used 2 hours to cross the bridge and now we've only got 1 and a half to finish the thing....and his friend said that there's not enough time already.shit.after passing a watering station at the beginning of the bridge....i started out pushing myself.Push like i've never done before.seriously.

when i finished the bridge i've only half an hour to return to queensbay.really shithole.it was near Ivory Tower and i pushed all the way to the finishing line with the person in mind...and oh yeah.I finished in time!!i clocked 3 hours and 20 minutes!!whoa felt so nauseous when i reached, vomitted air.so there i've got the medal and the cert.huh...most importantly the inspiration i'm running for.I didnt fail it.I'll run a marathon and I did.

Now I'm sitting right here typing this post...with a total annihilation of my body.with legs and joints like barbecued marshmallows.soft yet stiff and hard.its all worth it.there...... i've run it.



A run for love.

Noviembre - Month Of Memories

My favourite month of the year is finally here, just fits the timing really well. I'm gonna really have great things lining up this month. School's gonna end next week and so holiday plan's gonna kick in, to start it off, i'm gonna take part in the Penang Bridge Marathon.And my biggest expectation is, no not the medal, not the certificate and certainly not the prize money.But this.

Yeah, i wanna see this.Its just like the mood of the previous post, Out Of The Sunrise.It would have been heavenly you know.Just lately I've been doing things that let me hear my own self more clearly. I've taken significant interest in instrumental soul and motown music as well.such as Kenny G, Marvin Gaye, Kevin Kern, The Temptations and some of Butckethead's quiet pieces.

And lined up a simple vague schedule for guitar. I dont wanna put up like a rigid one so that i'll have fun with it, so that i can twist, so that i can bend around it. Anyway, decided for a 4 hour a day on the guitar. 2 hours on technique and the other two on pure jamming or ripping up songs. It'll be great, maybe i might go more than four, who knows, when you're high you never wanna get down. The penang bridge marathon offer a first prize of RM3000 for my category, so might be a useful lot if i got that.gonna try for that even got a slim chance.but the main aim is the break of dawn.the run gonna be on the 16th anyway.And that night I'll be heading to G-Spot, G-Hotel for a jazz event.which will showcase some penang peeps.Heres the flyer. gonna go to a bistro for the first time, if boozing, i'll try either tiger or heineken.heh.

I just love it that it rains a lot and unpredictably too in November.

Fly On Sweet Angel - I'll Be Back

The past weekend i've had, prolly could have been a fun one for me in quite sometime.Its exam fever this time around and everybody's busy eating and shitting books and notes.As for me, I've been taking it lightly and just started today...i dont wanna get shit grades afterall.After all the stuffs over the weekend.

On Saturday, it was Co-curiculum Day in school. So I went to help out the band play a few songs...like refreshment for the audieces la, really simple stuffs. After that went to Mcd with Chia Haw, Ed and Matt, had lunch.like normal Mcd days...ahh. and while lunching, Yik Sean invited me to go Gurney for some hanging out.So i decided to play along...since its been ages since i stepped into gurney.

Man, its hell of a good Gurney day actually.i went to Towers and guess what, they were blasting AC/DC when i got in there. And even shittier, Natalie the shopkeeper who branded Guns N' Roses punk rock was like tapping feet and lightly banging head to AC/DC's For Those About To Rock(We Salute You). Ahh....she has come a long way indeed.And there's a plasma widescreen showing an AC/DC concert on blu ray.Angus Young took of his pants when i was watching. = ]
Man...I seriously love Tower records that day, dont wanna get out la. it felt just so great with the hi-fi blasting!Thank you, Natalie.

After that went to the music shop and guess what i saw in the vault of guitars...




Its Joe Satriani's Ibanez JS20S Silver Surfer Limited Edition! man...this babe cost around 4 or 5K.Wooh....i've never seen a JS in local stores.gonna try it one day...too bad its in the vault.i really hope the people there are nice enough to let me try. And damnit they placed it right beside a JEM Jr...uhh..increases rocker libido..

Caught a chinese movie too, Painted Skin. nice storylines...almost made me cry.lots of romance ...always trust your partner.T.T

And and and and the thrill of the day. Got a new pair of piercings. one side each on the ears...yeah, got to experience the thrill of it again.It hurts more this time actually. so i'm already on the next level....planned for 3 on each side actually.heh
That was Saturday.

Sunday happened so quickly.I ended up procrastinating the whole day instead of studying. music and guitar being the attention seekers again.but i love it...how can you help it when you open up a book, and then the guitar pickups are like staring you on the face.ahh... so thats about it. gonna return after the finals.I'll be back again, blacker on me.Time to whip some education ass...keep on rockin'.


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Out Of The Sunrise

Without realising, this is already my fourth consecutive post with song title thieveries.gonna be the last...ciplaking ain't no fun.The others are :
Tuesday's Gone
Endless Rain
Afterlife

Thank you Lynyrd Skynyrd, X-Japan and Avenged Sevenfold for such inspirational song titles that struck me at the correct time. And yet this is another one, Out Of The Sunrise by Joe Satriani.This post is meant to be read with the accompaniment of this song that I've put in File Factory on the sidebar.So load and let it fly...

This is actually track 7 of Satch's latest album Professor Satchafunkilus And The Musterion Of Rock. Bought it with Janicia for Jared as a farewell gift... and now three months on, it landed in my room for some reasons heh.No, I ain't buruk siku.Jared did a bit of write up on this and his farewell.its now three months on and stuffs has quite changed hmmm, nostalgic and melancholy.Anyway Satchafunkilus is a superb guitar record with quite a few tracks highlighting Satch's signature 'fat' humbucker tone which I love very much and i guess some bigger sound due to the new Satchurator distortion such as in I Just Wanna Rock.every guitar music lovers surely would love to have this album. i'm gonna get one for myself too!! My highest ratings are for

Track 5 - Revelations
Track 6 - Come On Baby
Track 7 - Out Of The Sunrise

Professor Satchafunkilus And The Musterion Of Rock

okay coming back. i have dreamt and lately put myself in this play about the moods of Out Of The Sunrise. Me driving the Vios on a highway alone without much or nil traffic getting away from the island. it will be around 5, 6, or 7 a.m., the break of dawn with the song playing in the car. driving at 60 to 80 km/h with the first beams of sunlight breaking behind me as i cruise on...ahh.
Can you picture yourself in such a situation? i would really feel.... reborn. Like leaving a life and get on into another....I have always felt like that a lot of times in my life and I'm sure there are more to come.I do felt it during SPM last time, when i stay on up late to burn the midnight candle...sometimes you would just think of staying till sunrise. when another cycle of life kicks in again.
And yet, in this stage of life, I'm feeling it all over again.



Car on the highway.break of dawn. loneliness. cruising speed. out of the sunrise...


Hopefully i'll experience it one day...bringing my imagination to life.


Today has also been a good one for me i guess. Its a tuesday.Tuesdays are always beautiful...and right now tuesday's almost gone again...its 11.18 p.m. Spent half of today in school, not much really...ppl are catching up for the finals, and i guess i'm in it also. after school i did stay back for jazz but it seems delayed. so i hang around and talked to Danial.Talk about Steve Vai, G3 , guitarists, guitars, music and techniques...i'm just so glad that there are still people who knows and appreciate guitar instrumentals in Penang.Keep On Rockin' In The Free World, guys!!

after that, went home and get short nap before i go for a walk in Botanical Gardens.Out Of The Sunrise kept playing in my mind all the way...but its sunset actually, i guess it felt the same way.walked a big uphill round and a small round took almost an hour.saw a bunch of monkeys almost gangbang a dog which barked at one of them.tried to scope around also....but nothing really as its quite late already and the sky seems to hold up clouds of endless rain like the other day.hmm.seeing life and going through it by yourself really gives you a total different point of view.this can be another part of my soul search...seeing yourself by yourself.maybe I''ll become Buddha.maybe Jesus for real.never know...
after that I went to Subaidah for some mamak.i'm reliving the past again but this time i'm alone....aih.got two thosai and a teh o ais. no Mr.Lim Guan Eng this time around also.i always anticipate when i go there.as i finish up my food, the endless rain that was held up just now starts to shed some of its sky tears.went home in the drizzling rain.i'm on a bike, raining at night and without specs. i must be god to arrive home safely.

That almost sums up the whole of today.A shiok sendiri tuesday.yeah


~I'm coming out of the sunrise on a tuesday~

I love you.

Tuesday's Gone

Tuesday's almost gone.

Today started out with a continuation of yesterday's endless rain. hell yeah...serious endless.Love it to the max.More soul searching actually la today.What to do with all the sorrow huh.the grief.the heartbreaks. Heartbreaker day.

Have also decided that i ain't gonna work for the holidays unless got emergencies. more time for soul search.I'm glad yeah...more colours in life to see and i can use the time, sometimes I just can't make it on my own...

Jared came over at around 2. started to do some simple jamming and rocker and life talk.Got some CDs from him since he's gonna go back to MIAT soon and they are gonna be left in Penang.more jams after that. at around 5, we went for some hair cut in Passion. serious kena Kyo again without a request..my student hairstylist eerily represents Tower Record's Natalie...whoa.

after tht went for Subaidah again. there's no sighting of Mr. Lim Guan Eng though.did some binging of mamak stuffs, some kambing temptations.Binging felt like heaven these days.More of teh ais and teh o ais and loads more of guitar and life talk.~Orgasmic food~

One day...gotta do a twenty guitar harmonizing on Little Wing.imagine...my tribute.

currently listening to Vai's Sound Theories while writing this...got that along with Led Zep's Mothership in Borders the other day.Buy 1 Free 1 promo.yeah that struck me.this Vai cd is mainly orchestra pieces not the usual guitar virtuosity. another talent of maestro Steve Vai.

Steve Vai's Sound Theories Vol. I and II

Its an okay album.but I'll rather suggest getting his The 7th Song.all the smooth melodies there

Day after day, i continue to look into life.ahh, I love everybody.I love people.
Tuesday's almost gone...and i missed..again.

World
Life
Love
Blues

yang dikejar tidak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran

Endless Rain

What a day it has been, a day of endless rain.
woke up early this morning and was on the plan of going to air itam dam with class mates for some insect catching fun....turn out sucky though.we all met at the rendezvous point, 7-eleven. and soon after while waiting for others to arrive, we got avenged sevenfold for slacking in miss Lee's class, it started to rain.so it was cancelled and everybody dispersed.
was biking then in the drizzling rain....then when i pass transfer road, i decided to stop by for some roti canai in the rain before i got home.
That was the morning...then after, i stayed in the whole day watching the rain.it's beautiful when it's endless, the one that you know that it's not gonna stop for quite sometime.Today is lonely guitar day. Spent most part of it with the 'new' guitar i got from andrew along with the Samick amplifier for 250 bucks, still haven't paid him since he ran away to Singapore. Yet to name it, i'm still indecisive and undecided.....but its a 4-5 years old sunburst Squire California Series Stratocaster.

Exactly like this but with a maple neck

Most of the afternoon was spent on the bed playing the guitar and thinking and missing.... while looking up into the sky through the window panels.I call that soul searching, I can see myself more that way.It's still ame-ing.
stuffs i tried out>

Sweet child o' mine intro riffs
Rocking in the free world chords
Beast and the Harlot sweeping parts
some acoustic guitar from Patience
Little Wing. the solo is actually easier than the other part of the song
A bit of For The Love Of God

Still ain't that good la...ought to practice more.slacky fingers


Ahh...and all this while, still can't help missing her.what A Rocker i am.

Afterlife

i just wanna feature this song by Avenged Sevenfold, titled Afterlife.
The lines that i'm feeling...






I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear
escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,
far away from here


Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right



Perhaps.

Jazz, Rock, Sweat, Mamak, CM and the Harlot

Spent the evening going for a jazz practice with the band.There's a group of seven preparing to join The Jimmy Boyle Young Talent Competition.I'm gonna play the bone in there.It's always been cool and fun being able to work with Leonard Selva...one of the most impressive jazz guy I've met in penang.Anyway gonna have to wait quite a while before the fruit can be seen...hopefully its gonna work out great.It feels nice to being able to get back to jazz after all this while...
Then after the jazz prac went for a botanical garden walk and a small hike there.gain back all the muscles that has been loss for the pass three months.since my last visit there....whoa that was when I was training for Hikathon in April-Mei period.Just plain good outing, met the sprinting brain there i guess.heh.
Theres always fun in these type of outings. no frills, no worries, rocker to rocker talks.music all the way.Talked to Jared a lot bout Avenged Sevenfold, shredders, Scars Of Life, life stuffs, how the old time has been, how all of us on the way growing up, possibilities of giving up everything and start the rock revelation and (shit!) how one day rock legends will die, i dun wanna name them, freaks me out.

And hell after that went to Subaidah for some mamak stuffs, Horlick Ais and Teh Ais.Thrill of the day===> Met Penang Chief Minister, Mr. Lim Guan Eng. He's cool in my opinion...I respect him for being so humble to be able to come down to a mamak outlet.Yeah!!


No Music.No Life

Ixnay On The Hombre

If people can see.If they just can see...

almost everybody in this world wants to be the Man.
let me state before hand that my perception of the Man/MAN has been largely influenced by Dewey Finn, Yngwie Malmsteen and from my own struggle to get the MANhood flag as well.


this excerpt may be quite humorous but there's a point that you can't deny.

Give up, just quit, because in this life, you can't win. Yeah, you can try, but in the end you're just gonna lose, big time, because the world is run by the Man. The Man, oh, you don't know the Man. He's everywhere. In the White House... down the hall... Ms. Mullins, she's the Man. And the Man ruined the ozone, he's burning down the Amazon, and he kidnapped Shamu and put her in a chlorine tank! And there used to be a way to stick it to the Man. It was called rock 'n roll, but guess what, oh no, the Man ruined that, too, with a little thing called MTV! So don't waste your time trying to make anything cool or pure or awesome 'cause the Man is just gonna call you a fat washed up loser and crush your soul. So do yourselves a favor and just GIVE UP!

- Dewey Finn in The School Of Rock

i partially agree with Dewey on what the Man does and the Man is everywhere, but i still think there's always a way to stick it to the Man although you can't win Him. Dewey pointed out that the Man is in the White House, which is an indirect example of the state of the political warfare in the world nowadays. Everybody is trying to get the better of one another, who rules who, who obeys who, who leads, who's bigger, who's the Man.

He also refers to Ms. Mullins which is the principal of the school Dewey is subbing at.Ms. Mullins is the Man because because she's the one who controls the school, setting up all the rules. Then 'the Man ruined the ozone, he's burning down the Amazon' projects the image of selfish people who ruins the world just for their own gain.Then there's the Shamu thing which I don't really understand. But you can make it out that it all comes down to the point that people are filled with their own pride, hunger for power, little bubble of ego, greed and selfishness.To be the Man, the disgraceful Man. How disgraceful it may be, he's still the Man, thats all people care for these days...

~To be or not to be~



However, the Man is sometimes used in a good context.Yes, its ambiguous. It can be used as a reference to someone who has done a great job. got that idea from Yngwie Malmsteen from G3 2003. for example, someone who has beaten everybody else by a big margin in a competition...then you can say "He's the MAN....".A great guitarist, you can call him the MAN, Malmsteen used it on Satch. Can be used on activist too, such as John Lennon,he's the MAN. It actually can be used on people who fight against the Man, the other type of Man. So when you're sticking it to the Man, you are the MAN.

G3 2003 Satriani, Vai and Malmsteen

The MAN who said peace could last forever

[Please note i've used 'the Man' for the lesser, disgraceful one. As for the standing ups, the ones who stick it to the Man, I call them 'the MAN' - with capitals.for they are ass-kickers]


As for my view along my life, I've seen the Man everywhere.People fighting for power, for properties, for what should be theirs according to them.people try to control another's life. sometimes it is as simple as some parents in the house, they do regard their children as their properties, afraid to let them explore because they are afraid of losing them.But some are great ones who let their children experience things for themselves, good or bad so that they can learn. But I trust most parents love their children.Parent do want to be the Man sometimes...

People do fight for love too. Sometimes people got so deep into the fight and competition and forget the real meaning of love. They dont mind although its forced, all that comes into mind is getting her, as a property.they'll be proud i guess, being the winner.People wants to be the Man, the Man who gets her.
they forget that love needs no force...its the bonding of hearts.


As for me, i'm gonna be the man, a MAN who stands on his own, waiting for his love.

~The whole of my heart~

Syncopations

This marks the beginning of some diary style posts, which i am not really fond of.But i will write them anyway...just that they are gonna be rare.

Okay, Lets start with the period I got back to GSC. It was around the middle of May and I shitted myself can't believe it.When i quit from the place two months ago, for some reasons, I've taken something like an oath that i won't put a single unit of my cell into that office again...But then, I contradicted.Sigh
but seriously i don't regret getting back there.gotta see some old staffs back and gotta know a whole new bunch of people - Janicia, Jason, Sherine and others.And better still i got back to the environment where i can talk a lot more than i used to. Bitching with customers which include men, women, hotties, macho muscles, babes, gays, lesbos, paedos, horny old men who come and kacau our BO babes ...this is perhaps one of the best job to meet new and all types of peeps. Back to A LOT of my same old routine also....food court food, staff passes, verbal passes, scoping Auntie Lucy, CIOs and getting called Chuck and Larry along with Meng Jon.wtf

Movin' On
Rocked up me birthday bash.Jeesus is 18! another Christmas?felt like Santa...I'm not gonna elaborate bout it since Jared has written on that.Check that out. Wheen, you missed it...you better be back with my LTD or Ibanez.lol

And summore I'm riding now.As in real riding motorcycle.transforming to speeddevil-rempitman.Learn lots of stuff like controlling disc brakes, one-shot kick-guarantee- starts, pumping petrol...ohhh...more to life.riding is a lot of fun actually.Its just you and the wind, nothing in between.I Am The Highway.

Oh...shit.I'm in Disted-Stamford College since the 16th of June, the PigDog Lair. I swear that lots of them are acting as if they are the greatest lala tukaos in the world, loads of em in the business studies course.Never mind though, because this will only make me feel more like God, more believing in that I'm really Jeesus, a rocker ready to exorcise each and everyone of this specie. Felt like Constantine, wanna pump their faces with holy water loaded shells and 'tabuk' them with cross engraved metal knuckles.
But I am appreciative that that my SAM course got none of these, saved my life.
Overall, the college is an okay place i'll say, the library is great, the lecturers are good, so good that they can put you to sleep with only their words.I can't do that. The only thing that drag the place down is some of the students, as I've mentioned, Lalas.

Aih, I don't want to make this post long. Not that even I can, I'm studying day and working night, what hell time do I get to even do a blog post, even guitar time is significantly decreased.No pictures and stuffs to stimulate the senses, hopefully the music is more than enough.The best way to convey a feeling if you cant express it.Music.


Shit Post.In the Shittest of Time. i need time donation.



I've used a lot of 'shit'.seriously getting into my vocab. serious shit.

Who? The MAN?


SHIT.

Music Overdose

Updated 29/5/2008 7.28 P.M.
In this post, nobody gets credited as Datuk, Tun, Tan Sri or whatever extra surname. I strictly believe in all man are created equal.nobody gets an extra piece of shit and nobody got less either.ISA will do the right stuff, they ain't gonna bust people with thoughts to share.
just push your fingers into your eyes if you don't like it.




All I've got is insane~


More on music appreciation.
During this period of working/slaving to earn enough dough for an electric guitar, coupled with some shortages, music is my sanctuary that keeps me from being absorbed into the mundane world.Lots of stuffs coming in - Mustaine throats, Morello effects, J-rockers, Bach and the baroque gang, metal cellos, the newage Bach- Jason Becker, Kevin Kern, Nobuo Uematsu, etc..



Thank you for saving me from the monsters.

This time I wanna talk about political expressions in music.
If you did rip through the news these few days, you'll know that Mahathir has quited UMNO, Karpal Singh firing others and gets an assassination threat, ppl are going against the PM, disputes over some stupid rocks off Singapore solved and more interesting stuffs like Lim Guan Eng taking economy class flight and eating char koay teow at New World Park which is very humble of him. I'm firmly sat on the gate between the Government and Opposition, both seriously got their own positive and negative buffs. Although i think its humble of the Penang CM to do what he did, it does not sum up my stance in politics.Its just a matter of human quality.


Okay. The first phrase or clause[forgotten my grammar] that comes into my mind when I' m thinking, reading or people talking about these politicians - Bulls On Parade

That's a title of a song from Rage Against The Machine focusing on the States 'indulgences' in war.I can't really make out the full meaning of the song, just got it a few days ago but from the lyrics i think its more to criticising politics and the war-based industries - typically arms and weapons.Just like Stark Industries in the Iron Man storyline. They were talking about how people are fed with fear of death, tricked into believing in terrorists are coming to kill them, how the industries persuade the government into using military action and why did the government resort to war when peace would work. So finally, the arms industries will get the better of mankind as while they profit, people got killed and all the aggression.So from my point of view RATM is putting a point on why do we have to succumb to these government agendas and also an anti-war message.

By the way, the song's got a really innovative guitar solo, check it out. courtesy of Tom Morello.

Moving on, though i don't think the song meaning's got anything to do with our politics scenes as we're not into war yet and Heckler & Koch's share ain't Malaysia's main income, I just had this feeling of connecting the words, Bulls On Parade to politicians.maybe because the words rhyme with Politicians On Masquerade, which i just came across and express as these ppl are sometimes pretentious, you'll never know what's behind their teeth and smiles. You can't trust every piece of shit they say as most of them are 'all talk, no cock'. As you can see from the past elections, why do they need campaigning during the period?come market shake hands with people and all that.but when the election period is over, where are they? bet you'll never see them till the next round. And as you can also see, they are just no goodies...when they lose their seats, they create some big fuss and says that Malaysia is no longer united as people are supporting different parties.[i'm using 'they' to describe politicians and parties so that my neutral stance remains]But ain't that suppose to happen?we are a democratic country, ain't we?

And i got a few dreams on these shits too, dunno why.A peculiar one is I'm in a Warcraft tower defense map and i see there were two towers attacking each other, one with Abdullah's head and another with Mahathir's.way damn funny, laugh out loud.This is an obvious influence of too much cc outings and the current headlines. and I was a hero in the dream, forgotten who...but could have been either a Tauren Chieftain or Blademaster.there were other towers along the borders and I'm hacking all of them down all the way. a sign of anti-politics?pro-peace?but i'm using agression.....Jared the Dream Guardian, decipher it.

Ladies and gentlemen,I present to you Bulls On Parade






Maybe after 50 years, finally democracy is working in Malaysia.maybe.

Tributes and salutes to musicians who projects political, peace, anti-war and activist messages through their works.there are too many but mainly, Rage Against The Machine, Megadeth, System Of A Down and Bob Marley.Come lets share more of them.



Peace Is Selling, So Lets Buy 'Em.

Let's Play. Let's Support. Let's Experience

Music. the best form of art, language, hobby that i have discovered in this world. I'm just so overwhelmed by how much music can express and conform to anything without words. it is indeed a language itself. Its the bridge that connects the life and the soul. It can be a stairway to heaven or even a highway to hell..

I'm writing this post with the accompaniment of pieces by Kevin Kern [thanks for the intro at Borders, Wheen]. This man is a virtuoso on the piano despite that he is partially blind, playing mostly new age music...yes, awesome stuffs, i can really feel the music engulfing the heart and i'll have goosebumps all over.the best feeling attained when listening to instrumentals.

Back. I'm 18 this year and don't think that i have listened enough. And lately I've been wondering if i play all the good music in this world back to back non-stop, will I finish enjoying them before i die...not likely, i came up with. so the best a person can do is to rip and get the best of the best before its too late. In fact, for me, I love music too much to just sit and listen...like many others, i have to get up and play, and create, and contribute to the scenes!!

To make it clear, I've gotta say I'm a fan of all types of good music, be it pop, rock, classical or metal. but I'm particularly interested in music with lots of guitars and drums...you know, band kind of music.there's really no need to segregate them into genres and all that, music is music as it is. all the genre words are just adjectives to classify them, not type or meaning. Two group of music i wanna discuss here are the Classical and the Metal...many compare them as the furthest possibilities that happened in music; classical is above in the heaven and metal is way below hell, they say.
But if you analyze carefully both have lots of similarities.
Both have great fans. after a few hundred years, people still listen to classical
Both love great musicians. people love composers and guitar virtuosos
Both got a lot of technicalities. the musicians are seriously well trained
Both kind of music are not created for commercial values.its the musicians expressing themselves

I give my utmost respect to musicians who had crossed both of this impossible genres into their works.mostly given new adjectives again - neo-classical, symphonic metal, etc. the one i see clearly is Yngwie Malmsteen - yeah, now he's the man. also to Paul Gilbert, Jason Becker and a lot more guitarist names I'll never finish mentioning. and a particular band too, Stratovarius. you can see from its name formed from the rock guitar Stratocaster and classical violin Stradivarius, hence Stratovarius.they play classical influenced metal and a lot more bands do.

Most radio music nowadays are mostly seriously overrated. if you look at the chart toppers, mostly are hip hop and rap and related kind of music. I'm not a genre-ist okay, I still think Eminem is the best rapper in the world. back few years ago radios are filled with really awesome stuffs, but now mostly are conquered by sounds, not music. as if they are currently the best music in the world...wtf Top 40 and all that. they are not real...u can listen from the fake drum beats, they are created on mixers by producers, studio people.no effort taken by the musicians to express themselves...lots of them are just for publicity and commercials sake.exploited.cash cows.

And these assholes are blocking the real talents from getting an audience.the ones that really deserve the radio plays are in the unknown. and I think thats what sprouted the DIY/Indie scenes.Musicians are just tired of record labels controlling and exploiting music...they freakin control the length of songs, amount of vulgarity and expressions. shit them.

Besides, talking about music scenes, i felt that our local scenes lack support for each other. The people on top don't support the people below because they are afraid they will be more successful than them.and people below doesn't want to support people above because they think they are cocky and overrated.so that's how its flowing now, people on top are degrading because of lack of support and people below can't go to the top. - thats briefly quoted from Kelvyn Yeang which i very much agree.


Support all type of music.
Support the local music scene.
Let's make a change.





Sorry if i have contradicted with anything, I'm just spontaneously opinionated.

Casual Talk

The week just passed was a cruncher. spent 4 of the days idling out at Gurney [real lepak stuff] but did some beneficial things too. the main aim is actually to find a job. I'm rotting everyday like that at home....seriously, since i stopped GSC at the end of march.since then I've had a 2 months 'vacation'......hah,thats more than the December break already.

Anyway, while killing time, i did watch 3 movies in the cinema, all of them about war plus Hannibal Rising at home.loads of blood in amount
Went to Tower Records twice with Jared for him to get Pantera's Reinventing Hell and Led Zeppelin's Mothership. AND amazingly, Miss. Natalie, the main storekeeper still remembers me after 4 months. i actually got interviewed by her for a job vacancy application in December last year.heh. i didnt get the job...so, hey...screw it.i did not went into Tower's for the next 4 months....but then when we were about to leave on one of last week's visit, she recognized me. so did some casual talk...and maybe i can get to work there in June!
-will always be remembered for branding Guns N' Roses punk-

The job hunt with Jon didn't went smoothly though.full of decisions, most of the time indecisive and decisions are left undecided.I almost landed myself working in GSC again.hell...
I did applied for a music shop job but they gave no reply....so I'll just let it be. it would have been nice if were to get it, could spend time learning about guitar technicalities, learn from the ppl there, more music knowledge. speaking about knowledge, did went through some basic music theory lessons online here. It's better late than never.

Other than that, loading up the stomach is also the main event.
this week i am most satisfied with nasi briyani and ayam kurma at Restoran Tajudin Hussain somewhere near Queen's Street. the stuffs there seriously damn power. i had it for lunch and during dinner, i'm already craving for it.might got fixed with cocaine or something...another good recommendation is Line Clear Nasi Kandar off Penang Road.
spent quite a few times at mamak outlets and kopitiams. True Malaysians.

After all these indulgences and money spent, the sad fact is that I still got no job......ahh.


The songs in the Music Playlist will always be replaced with newer ones. so music related to posts might be missing.I'm sure you are able to get em if you're really interested


Post on music coming up next.Stay tuned.

I LOVE YOU MUM

Please Play the song I Love My Parents - Buckethead available in the sidebar as accompaniment for this post.

Recently someone poses as my mum in the cbox by the side[or is it really you mum?]. This really gives a deep impact to my thoughts....i've been thinking a lot about mum this few days.
It comes to me that I've always been close to mum since i was.....born?.yeah.a real mummy's boy. reminisced a lot about all the sweet time spent with her, all the outings, shoppings, fetchings from school and tuitions, McDs, Gurneys and more. yeah, do have gurney outings with mum.weird?No.
You emo craps out there.....please, it ain't a shame to go out with your parents.

And come i want to share some stuff with you people out there.this is an article wrote by my mum back in 1993 about motherhood. man, i was still sucking thumb then i think. I managed to dig it up from piles of history. this was written for her Nursing School Newsletter and the title is Mum's Vantage.

MUM'S VANTAGE

5 THRILLS OF MOTHERHOOD

Life has changed a lot ever since my children came along.More exciting you may say.Here are 5 [of many] thrilling things that have happened to me since i became a mother.

1. I get to go to Macdonalds and KFC often.
I dont really like the food and could never stand the place but now i jump with joy when my kids want to go there for food.It doesn't matter if they have only a limited menu, my kids order only happy meals, anyway.Fancy having one myself.

2. I get to go to toys dept in shopping centers.
I could spend a whole morning there trying out the tricycles, pulling strings on talking dolls and persuading my three year old son that he really needs the Lego set rather then the ninja turtle which can only turn it's arms.

3. I get to stay up late into the night.
Like my children, I had always wanted to stay up late into the night as a child. Now as a mother, I have no choice but to stay up all night because my children don't want to go to bed.

4. I get to play with Lego and my little ponies.
These toys were non-existent when I was a child. Even if they weren't, my parents would not have been able to afford to buy them for me. Well, I guess it is never too late to have a happy childhood.

5. I have learnt to speak a new language.
the language which comprises mainly of euphemisms like 'ta-ta', 'poo-poo' and 'wee-wee'. Don't tell me you learnt it too!

I am having fun and joy becoming a mother. What about you?
Mother to be, be prepared to experience...

By My Mum


Okay, so here it is. written 15 years ago and now its here. Once again please, you people out there, shower your parents with love. No matter what it is, an argument or misunderstanding, remember every mother loves her child to the fullest. Don't just break the bond over something stupid.

Now go and embrace mum or dad while you still can. I'm sad to say this but as every second past, you are constantly nearer to losing them.

I LOVE YOU MUM.

WORLD.I PASSED

i relinquish the fact that i don't need to return to Mutiara for eons to come. i passed my bike today by the skin of my tester's teeth.
seriously...i got 8.27 seconds on the 'titi' which i'm suppose to be on for more than 7.0 seconds.man, just a mere 1.27 second cushion thanks to some last minute braking.ahh...now when i think back...yes, it's hell there.actually this is already my second time doing the bike JPJ test.the first time i failed....so i gotta pay 30 bucks to take it again and yeah, you guessed it right i failed the 'titi' the first time.

two weeks earlier, I've passed the car test which is a smooth ride for me.its so weird that i appear to be able to handle four wheels better than two. while driving on that day, Unforgiven II by Metallica lingers in my cerebral cortex. from the too much listening the day before i guess....but it fitted nicely.i would have grinded the tester's balls if he had asked me to turun kereta.while this morning, during the bike test the music of the day is Kodou by Dir En Grey. I've put this two songs up at the sidebar with imeem. imeem is so gay but sorry i couldn't find better ones.

Listen to Kodou full till when the throat cracking roar comes in at 2.30.
only some will get pleasure from it...just enjoy.thats the scream when i passed=]

okay back to the driving stuff.
honestly learning to drive and ride were not pleasant experiences for me. Lots of time wasted[i started december 2007] because of lots of delays. you'll be waiting there for your turn to take the test.then when its your turn, they'll just fcking say "oh...sekarang masa makan tengah hari dan rehat".not only will the testers spend their time eating, after that they'll be slacking and smoke before they return to the track.
TYPICAL MALAYSIAN ATTITUDE

But, after these gruesome tortures. you'll be granted your license.this is the good part.
now i bet that all malaysians out there are careful on the streets not for the fear of death, but the fear of losing their licenses and have to brave through the driving school again.

Updated 19/4/2008 - found something to replace imeem. its faster...so start ripping it!

shitty spam robots

life returns to normal.on march 20 something, blogspot's brainless(indeed) spam robots marked this damn blog as a spam....freakin retard.
then ask to request unlock review which takes a few thousand years..then when i revisited this blog,it says tht it is not yet unlocked.what the hell??even shittier i waited for two weeks and they give me this crap again.
but i forgive

so it was ignored.the original address of this page is as seen in your address bar minus the dashes~

tht explained why i wrote in the previous post-the actual time and date
but there are more to come on stuffs in the past two weeks


Later

NOW,NOW-updated 11/4/08
a day after i wrote this post.tht original suddenly unlocked
so i change back the address to www.peaceloverocksoul.blogspot.com
so tag it there or something...

The coming of age

ok, so i'm into blogging now.
man, i used to think dat blogging are for those with too much time to spare...yeah brains do evolve.
hopefully doesn't take up much of my guitar time....since i'm waiting for my intake in june,yeah quite a lot of time to kill.

to all u junkies out there,this might be the only channel where u can get connected to my thoughts...evendat not totally.brain TO fingers TO blog TO you....so lag of stuffs is always possible.
not many people know this brain wit thoughts of mine...try to siphon as much from this channel


ahhh....jus cut the crap.let the game begin~


actual date and time>> 22/3/2008, 7.43 p.m.